for Cheng, George, Weihan, Katherine, Veronica, Christopher
The walls of our home have turned to glass
because the world wants to watch us cry.
Our mistakes and regrets are written with
the blood on their hands and
we desperately try to
wash them out with our tears.
College degrees hung at crooked angles read:
"University of California, Santa Barbara" shootings
Google Images replaced our pictures of beaches with
pictures of a terrorist &
We fling open windows to air out the last of the tear gas
only to slam them shut to
keep out the camera crews who
harass us because
The world wants to watch us cry
but this glass is strong
you can’t tell if they’re cries of
We look like we’re screaming.
Sometimes it’s singing
one look in our eyes and you can tell we’re just masking
the fact that 2AM bagels will make us suddenly sadder
that chicken shawarma sandwiches will taste vaguely of gunpowder
that we can’t get slurpees in Cherry anymore
IV means 4.
but everything’s backwards now and
VI means 6
Our hearts bleed Blue & Gold for the six holes in our home
We fill the bullet holes in the glass with flowers.
We light our candles in the night
soon it’ll be mourning.
The rising sun will bring 8 page papers, projects, exams
but it hasn’t risen yet.
So we’ll just sit in the dark, candles in hand
with our deadlines and finals and heartbreak and strength
written by my great friend, Stefan.
I wasn’t able to be in IV to support my school, but here at UC Berkeley many of us UCSB Alumni came together with the Cal community for a remarkable and extremely touching memorial. So many of these alumni knew or lived with the victims or the people injured, and hearing their stories made everything even more real. I couldn’t be more proud to be a Gaucho and to support my community back in my other home, Isla Vista. We sang ole ole ole for all of you down there and together, in SB, in the Bay, and all around the world we are one very strong and loving family. We are #GauchoStrong and #IVStrong. (And thanks to my bestie @siamouuu for coming to support me!) (at UC Berkeley)
He’s back!!! Missed him like cray! Love this cutie :D ❤
Backstreet Boys - Show ‘em (What You’re Made Of)
Saw these guys again last night - it.was.AWESOME. Got my white girl dancing on and belted out all the songs until I couldn’t sing anymore. But holla at them in this video. They are still looking DAMN good and sound just as amazing. I will love them until the end of time, and Nick Carter and I will get married at some point. Drew has already accepted this. :)
Can’t believe what has happened at my school. It’s shocking to think that I was just there and this could have easily happened last year. I never thought I’d see my school in all the headlines for a mass shooting, and I just wish I could be there to assist in any kind of help for my fellow Gauchos, and the IV community. So sad :(
dont you ever try to pull this shit with me I will stab you